My laptop is broken, and it's all my fault :(

When I was using it yesterday, I didn't get a good grip when I standing up and it hit the floor, on the side where the power cable connects in. I didn't notice, but the laptop started using battery power instead and ran itself down. It won't recognise when it is plugged into the mains power so something is clearly wrong with the connection and now it won't even turn on.

Sadly, my landlord, who is an electronics engineer and who I usually seek out for all laptop problems, is away at a work conference and even when he gets back, he and the family are off a few days later for a couple of weeks abroad so he'll be super busy getting all ready for that. I have contacted a tech friend at church to ask for help, but he is always super busy. If he can't help, I'll put the feelers out. Kelvin might be able to help or recommend someone at least.

*le sigh* I seriously hate it when this happens. I feel all antsy and on-edge not having my line to the 'net readily available. I can use the house computer but really it's the girls to use and abuse. At least at work I have the internet. I wonder if there's a god of electronic goods?
 

I have seriously not represented myself well today. It's my last full day here at work (til October) and am back to part time hours from tomorrow. It's been pretty quiet the past few work days, but today was crazy busy with so much to deal with and I don't think I was always as helpful and sparkly as I could have been. I hate it when I'm like that 'cause I know how annoying it is when you need help and the person whose supposed to help you just isn't helpful or polite. I just pray that I would improve and soon and continue to be refined.

Also Extreme Makeover: Home Edition rules all, I want to marry Preston. Plus there's a new series of Strictly Come Dancing starting this Saturday and a new Dancing with the Stars starting the week after. Yay! I have a serious yen for Ghost Hunters, mmmmm.

I got reminded of how tough my boss is today. If you don't acknowledge her when she comes into the lobby, she gets really mad - apparantly it shows that you're not paying enough attention to those coming in and out and so not fulfilling the most important aspect of the receptionist job. Tanya, my immediate superior, pulled me in to talk about this cos the big boss was pretty mad about it and wants me to show immediate and dramatic improvement in this or I might be out on my ear. 

It shook me pretty bad cos I'd been improving all-round and my follow-up appraisal's next week and Tanya said it was gonna go well. Now there's a real spanner in the works, but I am determined to show that I can do it. Cos I know I'm capable of it, I'm just so frustrated that the big boss (and some of senior management, I've been told) isn't seeing it. I'm just not used to reaching these really exacting standards and I feel like I've let so many people down. Plus this is gonna go on my record which sucks. It was bad timing for my summer from hell (home-wise) to coincide with my new job and I just haven't been able to keep it out my work.

It was good to see my mentor tonight - she's like free therapy. She listens to me rant about stuff that's gone bad and gone good and asks questions occasionally and lets the silence stretch and then we pray. It's a good system and it works. I'm not gonna let this defeat me.